purple diana

i been thinking if i should like jus blog wat i feel sometimes when i'm feelin reali very terrible at times but i dunno wat else can i do? been so freak out abt tis word MONEY i been pushing myself too hard i guess, more over CNY is reali coming everything gotta buy clothes, bedsheets, shoes blah blah blah..and i been learning driving all the fees all by myself, how i wish there's someone who can give me a hand and help me out? but i guess i'm seriously dreaming but i still have to go on for myself i guess...

i feel so tired when everything my auntie talk to me is all abt MONEY MONEY MONEY.. i'm reali trying very hard who can understand me??

i srly got no mood to blog but i know i reali should jus blog with my silly stupid life~~ wat have i been doing tis mth, wat m i busy with?? last week meeting up brenda and wendy for ktv session.. min been very unhappy for her marriage is reali sad when u see your best fren doesnt feel the happiness in her marriage, but we always tell ourself we chose the road we wan and we cant do anything.. maybe i feel im luckier dan her cos hubb wont treat me like how royce treat her, maybe royce is reali not ready to have a family cos he feel he's in prison.. haiz!!

as for wendy she jus broke up with jeff but she's a strong gal ba, i realise her bday is same as wendysis.. in my phone i have alot of wendy!! i have wendysis, wendybaby, wendyker (sky) and wendybren (know thur brenda) haha~~ as for baby i miss her so much i make her feel disappointed and i dunno wat to say to make myself feel better in heart..

had my sec sch gathering like finally the day come and of cos there's some pple who didnt attend but still with the group of 6 of us we still get to enjoy ourselves, sky was quite angry with them cos we ald inform them like 1-2 mths ago and everyone seem so ON abt it end up kena plane by them.. actually as i plan for tis gathering i expect tis kinda thing will happen..

had our dinner at waraku and the dinner service was real suck... aft dinner we head over to liang court party world, it was the actual planning for our gathering but due to some others pple who didnt attend doesnt wanna go ktv as they dont sing so we cancel the program.. but end up we still went for the actual planning how great, and i been singing like 2 nights and my voice is reali damn terrible..

tis week i ha da blur week cos i tot my stomach appt is tis mth so i took my leave but end up i mistaken the mth it's suppose to be on may, wat a waste trip to wake up early and took the trian alone.. head to ICA building for my passport collection and i realise i didnt bring the old passport goodness im srly blur ike shit!! as i took my Q number wth i gotta wait like 300 pple dan it will be mine turn, i wanted to make an appt but is ald fully book.. call up april to take down my passport.. hehe!!

while waiting my water bottle leak omg, my bag get wet i tot the toilet would have a dryer but it doesnt.. i flip over my bag so i gotta wait for it to dry and their air corn is good wan cos i sit for like 3 hours and yes it reali get dry up.. see how blur i'm now a days~~ finally i sit there for like 3 damn hrs and im getting out of there.. went to chinatown to find clement for our thai trip yes finally we book the tickets ald... it will be MAY 13-16~~

i srly dunno wat to blog there is nothing special in life.. jus a normal life without any happening.. my CNY + valentine is reali suck so boring eve night im actually at home goodness... same old thing for 1st day visiting 13hill dan to F.i.L hse for lunch head over to hubb ah ma hse to visit her awhile.. back home cos baby, sweetie, nanny, shun & janelle came over for mj... boring boring boring~~

didnt go visit my M.i.L cos during CNY i reali had bad time chionging toilet~~ wth!! damn sick and sianz, hopefully she wont mind i didnt went there la.. nanny went to represent me..!! lolx.. start work on 4th day of CNY totally got no mood to work jus like still having holiday mood.. haha~~

let me say abt today hmmm on half day leave cos my appt to National Heart Center kena refer by CGH, before tat had warako for lunch with pa & apr!! eat till wanna vomit too full ald.. thanks to princess cos she companied me the whole check up and she so tired yet fall asleep while waiting.. the doctor i met is like damn experience cos she know the doctor who operate my heart and she need me to do another heart scan, so she also tell me my stomach had operate before so i ask her is it bcos of tis i have weak stomach.. she tell me might have and refer me to stomach doctor... haiz all tis is $$ again!!

went to trim my hair abit and i think it look nicer now ba.. went to bugis cos princess wanna do nails so does baby, met up at bugis and i infill my gel nails.. didnt walk around cos is also abit late, meet pa for dinner wanna go neil rd but too bad close today.. fetch kor and we had dinner tgt at some stupid punggol place..

23 Feb was our 3rd year anni.. went to visit him and say happy anni to him.. i reali miss him.. i ask him abt my job hopping and abt the ring i wanna buy.. both kena reject liao.. so gotta wait for him to buy me le la..

diana shopping mood is ONzzz...

i think last time i can stop myself for spending but now i cant, i wanna get iphone asap when my contract haven end.. i wanna buy myself a ring cos i lost my proposal ring, i wanna pay it by installment.. but i dunno if im right for doing it...!!

tat day i went to visit him and i share with him abt my spending haha, which is damn weird cos usually i wont wanna share with him abt all tis as he will start to complain abt me wasting my money or blah blah blah.. but he jus ans me "when u spend $$ u very happy hor.." yes indeed im very happy when ever i spend $$.. i tell him how much i miss him, how much i wan him to be back with me.. i hold on my tears cos i reali miss him so much and i wanna hug him but i cant..

i wanna thanks someone who never leave me alone, i always hurt him but no matter wat he keep his promise to be there for me.. he notice me when im not happy.. im glad he is still here with me!! AH MU 谢谢你...

ilovebaby

bcos of cny everything is jus like an excuse cos we tend to do our hair, nails and most impt is SHOPPING.. ytd went town with yin n qh and is a SHOES searching day, i bought 2 shoes which i like it very nice.. haha!! 1 is to match my dress another 1 is bcos is blink blink... plus mummy bday present share with april 2 AX t-shirt for her and 1 for yin bday present another 1 is for myself.. goodness jus in AX i spend $300++ wth i think is the most i spend on!! hmmm maybe not cos bebe use to spend tat much as well..

5+ rushing down to baby hse to meet her cos we going to denise hse for her hse warming, took cab back frm bugis to tamp haiz $20.. took the fried rice down dan since aftnoon i been very giddy cos LS again, been not feeling well tot ald recover when i was at baby's place.. who know i eat 1 small plate of fried rice started again!! chiong to vomit + LS wtf!!

i went home without letting them know when im on the cab i sms baby, too xin ku ald nv eat much the whole day also.. rushing carry on with my LS!! didnt went out aft tat we suppose to go for clubbing but i spoil mood cos im sick..!! sad sad..

today went to meet yin n qh again at eastpoint, head for shopping at 1 of the shop there.. bought 2 top and 1 dress.. i muz stop spending ald, cos im totally broke...!! but im lucky cos yin will hint me if the clothes is nice or not nice so i wont anyhow buy.. =) went to 13hill for dinner cos pa say we gonna have early reunion dinner, but is false alarm next week still got 1 dinner the actual reunion!!

been thinking abt my job thing lately jenn intro me to an interview at yio chu kang but im reali considering if i reali should jus get my ass out of the company, how to tolerate if my days gonna be like last week.. i will jus kill myself n f her up.. haha!! i miss him, how i wish he is around he will jus give me energy give me love.. but i reali need to face it myself.. should i or should i not... resign or not to resign...??

tis week is totall crazy plus mad... sad as well.. i guess it been such a long time i write out feelings or maybe all the while is all abt rubbish.. thanks for those who read!! glad to have u.. pls leave a tag so i know there's still people read tis bloody blog!! =)

for the past 2 days - 1st is my family problem... having a big fight or quarrel but not me, some other family members.. when thing dun turn out good every thing tat come out frm each other mouth is reali hurt, when they are yr family member!! cos their so call angry harmless comments is jus like a deep cut into me.. im glad things is back to normal now!! reali feel so sad when family having problem...

2nd is my  f-ing job recently she been damn f up cos everyone kena scolding frm her, the most angry is today cos early in the mng she come to me and bang my table and started to shout like some stupid women!! goodness~~ srly dunno wth happen to her!! everyday need to scold pple dan she happy, come and scold me till i cannot tan han cos she been f up nobody can stand her..

even come and say LJ wei to others abt me "那个小姐最有空叫他做.." wth office 我最有空 我白拿工钱~~ how can she come and say tis infront of others how will they think?? im so angry and i almost resign but im reali considering abt it.. everyday like tat how can, my manage say "treat a mad dog braking at u lo.." how i wish i can... if carry on like tat i also dunno how lo.. do tis do tat also wrong like when i finish my job i ask her if she have anything for me to do and she start "你做东西这么careless blah blah blah.." so when she pei cek she start to talk cock "我一个人做有空的人都没有说要帮我.." knn u heard ald u angry anot... is damn du lan la...

FRI - waiting for pl to fetch me cos we are heading to KALLANG AMIT CONCERT~~ tis is my 2nd time to concert and my 1st time is like how many years ago to see ANDY LAU!! tat time is realivery young also same went with pl around 10 yrs ba, wow damn long lo.. the concert was hmmm ROCK cos she using AMITfor tis concert, nv reali sing those slow song but mostly on rock..

somehow got abit disappointed maybe she no longer can put tat high as we expected, grace is very happy and very high.. didntexpect her to get so HIGH she even stand up jump and dance, cool la.. cos AH MEIis her fav!! hopefully if next yr how AH MEI i also wanna go watch..

SAT- went to see hubb aft my work with baby n pl, but before tat some thing happen.. abt me n apr~~ i srly dote her alot and all the while i put her in the 1st place but i also know i pamper her too much, watever it is she's still my little sis who i love her alot.. hubb ask abt jason omg.. i srly dunno how to tell him wher the hell he went!! hopefully tis mimi can keep till he come out...

we went bugis to return baby car, wan tan mee for lunch.. took train to town!! start our shopping~~ i tot im able to get things i like but damn shock thing is i big spender is apr!! even baby and pl saw wat they like but me........didnt even see anything i like!! how come like tat i also dunno usually i will at less see 1 thing i like but on tat day the shopping mood is not even there.. partly i feeling pei cek also dunno why have tat kinda feeling.. try bra also can try 6 bra non of them i feel comfortable.. wtf!!

sweetie came to meet us head to coffe club, sit and chat abit.. took train to clark quay, searching for my hp and i couldnt find it!! goodness at tat point of time i damn relax dunno y also, but sweetie n baby also "kan jiong" for me.. =)  try to call 100 to ask for cine coffee club number but they tell me DUN HAVE wtf!! dun understand~~ end up my bro give us the number and LUCKILY they kept it for me!! thanks god~~

enjoy the night at lunar!! had nice cakes as well...

i guess im quite lazy blogging abt my life cos it seem to be boring, weekdays are getting normal meeting up for dinner blah blah blah~~ fri meet up with yin she brought me to eastpoint 1 shop selling clothes, omg and tat's how i started to get my cny clothes.. i didnt know there's such a nice shop there cos most of their clothes is very nice!! which make me n yin spend spend spend~~

we head to tamp mall for my fav ding tai feng!! wow so long nv eat ald, missing the 小笼包~~ dan relax on fri!!

start on sat meet up with baby to SD awhile dan go back to lunar to find may and kor.. eat something new with kor outside nect, standard to company him talk talk and sit sit there.. the night there was normal not very high but i nv drink i also abit siao wan, make no diff also.. haha~~ went upstair to yue and i tell kor next time i come i wanna go up sing song ask the singer to teach me singing, so i wont waste my time dancing downstair, so tired lo!!

suppose to join the bros at bq but tat stupid Tay CC went back ald so no more place to go, back to HSH... kor cook maggie mee i eat abit cos i feel im hungry sia, april came back and vomit outside our hse sia... she been drinking alot recently as heard frm kor!! tis women ar.... haiz!!

waiting for holiday on MAY with the gals, hopefully everything will get smooth and we can eat and shop... im counting the days of hubb return as sometimes i reali miss him alot, but as for my carefree days i hope i can balances up when he get back as well..