Cry when u say sorry

everyday before evening the sky get dark and it started to rain HEAVILY, so pple pls bring jacket along with u when u go out ok.. didnt manage to use hubb come cos i SPOIL his com, been trying so hard change my monitor to apr's monitor but the stupid monitor only show me "NO VIDEO INPUT" wth is tis.. reali dunno wth happen to his com, make me had sleepless night abt it feel so scare later let him know he will scold me anot.. say i think too much ba!! *winkz*

suppose to ask the man to repair today but cancel bcos wanna meet up with daddy for dinner, end up cancel liao cos he hang over.. haiz have to wait till tmr for my com to repair, i know still got few mths for him to be back but i jus wanna fix it asap.. if not i reali feel very pei cek!! but i wanna thanks DS cos he help me to try out my com also, still cant work.. heng ar he come tamp for mj ar bo i will jus pei cek till i cry..

receive hubb letter ytd when i read till the last part i cry, haha maybe i feel touch by him ba.. he say sorry to me...!! im going to countdown to see him next SAT think there's alot to tell him, wanna let him know i reali miss him alot..

anyway finally i bought AH-MEI concert tickets!! wow i cant believe im going to see her but frm the behind seats.. haha~~

xmas is coming alot of impt pple bday coming also, is jus like combo.. DS, baby my 2 best colls also... omg!! im thinking wat to get for baby... hers is the most hard present i guess...

bad MONday

last night went to have dinner with bff @ 天府, thanks to JZ for the treat.. head to ECP for our bowling competition haha.. our group with JZ, kathy and ah boy!! aother group ah-9, xiaomei, longie and yao cum april.. we play total 3 games each, the last game was totally stress sia.. which group lose dan each muz pay $24 for 6 games la, there suppose to be a cold place + raining summore..

but most of us is sweat like hell sia, the way we are so serious i think when we bowl there is a 24 infront of us remind us!! cannot play play la... our screaming is the LOUDEST!! hehe... think i cant wait to go genting on JAN!! hopefully everything goes well~~

today is reali a F up day, supeng on leave suppose we still can handle but dunno wth happen to our phone... keep ringing ringing~~ wow lau like non-stop techno lo!! hang up ald dan got another call.. all the rubbish call also!! so many D/O need to open.. getting abit tired of tis job...!!

sil went to visit hubb today n he 's angry of ME la.. cos he expecting me to be there but i didnt!! i didnt go is not bcos i dun miss him, i miss him alot but i dun wanna take any leave for it.. taking leave is = deduct paid!! 真的没有钱了.. i hope he will understand ba, anyway tats show he miss me more dan miss him mum la.. hehe!! bad hor me...

reali get very moody in the end of the work, my invoice i open wrong, D/O also write wrong model.. wth m i doing?? y i become more n more careless...?? im tired of getting F for all tislittle little shit... hate it hate it!! i feel break down and i feel like crying.. jus cry out loud myself...

missing u every now n then 

abt my weekend

THURS went to watch 2012 with sam, gurl, nelson, april and aunty... wow the show is reali damn nice!! aft waiting for so long finally there sumthing tat is nice real nice!! i think if he's around he will like tis show as well.. i miss him

FRI meeting up sky, yin, qianhui tot will go off in time but too bad i left office around 7pm, outside raining so heavily the whole day.. weather is damn COLD also, im wearing shorts summore.. lolx so pai say make sky wait for 1 1/2 hour for me standing there like sum kuku!! opps.. dad fetch me to town it take me abt 1 hour to reach town, heavy traffic!! wth..

yin having dinner so sky told her we will walk frm orchard to somerset to find her wth, she love yin more.. sob sob!! we took a bus there have have mac for dinner, thinking where to go aft tat.. head over to dempesy wow nice place "p s cafe" reali damn hungry i had mac ald i went there still order food to eat!! maybe aunty visit make me hungry + pain.. sianz!! didnt go sabai to meet them too tired ald...

SAT is a long day for me, gotta go m'sia for supeng wedding dan to longie bday party at sabai.. wow!! happy day... weiping fetch me to henry hse, turning out of my place suddenly i rem i didnt bring my passport.. hehe have to make a U-TURN back to take!! reach henry place park van there dan M'sia here we come~~

we took 3 hours to reach tat place, omg on the way so tired + hungry!! the weather again cooling~~ jus nice we reach at 6pm but wedding is abt the same dun start in time, so we wait wait wait till 7-8pm food come le.. erm the food not bad we ald come all the way frm spore if the food not nice i think im going to KILL her ba..

sumthing i like in M'sia for their wedding, they have singing session for them to sing on stage.. if spore can do the same how nice!! cos the ending part supeng hus frens all go up and sing 祝福 n 朋友 for the wedding couple, i think if spore reali can do tis it will be damn touching.. their service there is suck la!! no choice la is at M'sia we also can expect much frm them right? there is a place near the recep counter with chair for pple to take pics, so sweet and loving they even put those couple bear there also..

boss send me down to sabai hehe..!! saw the cupcakes reali look nice of cos it's delicious... most of them is here but sam, angeline n zhu nv come!! baby come awhile.. pl fetch april over also haha.. dunno how to start abt tis party... erm!!

everyone happy dan not drunk but HIGH too many rubbish and joker abt it.. pple wear skirt drunk liao open their leg big big or wear skirt till backside show everyone.. drunk liao anyhow walk into our table knock her head... all tis rubbish reali is laugh till we pengz la...!! i think we all laugh till we damn tired la..

mummy aunty say wanna ask me go see another doc for my lump, i reject her cos i ald feel so tired abt seeing tis doc tat doc.. all tis is all abt $$ since im wanna go for the oper dan i reali dun wanna care so much ald.. how i wish he is here with me?? i dun have to be confuse he can help me to think wat should i do wat should i not.. i srly miss him alot..

Clark Quay - Sabai

meet up with pearly and shiping at simei had dinner head down to CQ dan went to find eric to sit and drink coffee, didnt reali join pearly cos i tot im abt to go off to sabai.. jus happen to know tat shiping is actually related to my BOSS wth!! haha they are relative lo.. the world is so damn small lo!!

stay up at CQ till around 3am!! omg.. chat chat with eric dan to gabrial and darren also, go in and see Betty sing as usual kor still like the way she perform in stage.. something tat feel very disappointed is the singer alex!! omg feel tat his singing reali terrible la, is so torturing listening to his voice..

went to sabai zhu left liao so pai say she come dan i so late dan go over, heng ar haven cut cake lo!! before i go down everyone ask me "y u go sabai??" haha i also not sure cos my bff is there so i join them lo.. anyway i go down i saw yeeseng wow he still have drunk sia, dan i ask longie "wow so power ar till now haven drunk..." he heard me la start to ask me drink!! haha~~

thanks to kathy also keep jio me drink sia, kns.. cheryl thanks also she say kathy "不要在让他喝了!" hehe!! 谢谢你 muackz.. it seem like we reali need to get more happening, sabai seem getting more n more bored leh.. or is club till sianz also dunno but jus like the companied with all my bff.. went back with sam, gurl and angline cos angline abit high liao..

on the way back frm ECP we stop for 3 times cos she wanna vomit.. she ask me to take a pic of her dan there's flash light, gurl n sam got shock cos they driving at 140 la.. so pai say!! is flash light not kena camera ok... hehe!! seng angline back 1st dan we go eat our breakfast at near sam hse, wow i fall asleep sia.. heng ar eat prata liao abit awake lo!!  

next week is longie bday and supeng wedding~~ hope to get back in time for longie sis...!!

Scope at CGH

i'm on unpaid leave today haiz unpaid mean deducting my pay!! sick sia.. but do i have a choice i need to go for the stupid scope i woke up at abt the same time going to work, my appt is 11.30am and i was ask to reach 2 hours earlier so i reach there at around 9.30am.. so when i go and register they tell me "you are abit early, jus sit down and wait awhile.." ok i will wait then~~ ZZZzzzzzz

so i wait for damn 2 hours sitting there for nothing but thanks alot for the companied with me...!! went into the room for scope, they give me sumthing for me throat to numb my throat 很苦 *vomit* dan inject me to fall asleep.. less dan 123 sec i think im gone liao.. dun even have the feeling of them putting a tube in me!! wth i think i fall asleep like A PIG haha.. i didnt know they push me out n put me in the day surgery room!! lolx so tired and sleepy~~~

woke up i feel my throat is so pain and still have tat smell, plus the needle on my hand which make me damn pain also.. kaoz!! they give me milo n bread omg i didnt eat for the whole day.. rest awhile more dan go and arrange my oper date..!!

dear fren my heart is fine so my oper will be on 17 Dec..

went to TM and eat my craving tepanyaki like finally get to eat it, haha cos we are damn hungry la.. walk around dan didnt watch any movie also, my movie appt with yin is cancelled!! too bad~~ anyway went to look for my stars stars and we spend time at popular reading some BOOKs.. yes reading so i intend to get 1 book.. haha!!

The Meomories Of Jason

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Jason R.I.P 03.11.09

aft the shocking news abt Jason, most of us didnt get to sleep well.. even me i know during my sleep he keep coming into my mind.. i reali miss him!! but he is reali gone he left us, no longer having him with us for drinking, X'mas, Bdays and even mj.. phone keep ringing the whole day busy abt Jason thing, alvin send a msg to meet at MANDAI 6.15pm.. i was like wth so fast n there's not "song ka" or watsoever!!

took 1 hours time off ask baby n pl to fetch me n go there tgt.. i srly hate to go tat place cos those who left us is usually there!! waiting for everyone to reach, when u get to see everyone is either WEDDING, BDAYs or BAD NEWS like today.. we still didnt get to celebrate his bday on dec n x'mas tgt!! he's reali GONE..

你的勇气让我感到很佩服，一想起我们的快乐的时光眼泪不知不觉的掉下来

nobody knows wat have happen to HIM even we wanna find out i guess is quite hard for us as well.. during the last ceremony i reali find it hard to control my tears, as all the memories abt HIM with us is still so fresh.. we play mj tgt, we sing, we skate~~ he make me think of sum1 who pass away few years ago!!

i miss hubb so much, how i wish he's jus beside me during the wake.. so i can hug him as tight as i wan..!! we short of 1 bro for our wedding.. no longer have sum1 call jason with us, only HE in our mind..

BRO R.I.P

i miss u jason

Appt at CGH

rushing for my work having half day leave today, need to clear up my mth end thing and gotta work OT tmr.. is a MUZ!! haha.. pl came to fetch me with grace dan went for lunch at east point.. we go tgt as he also have appt there.. DS came to company me, we going town aft my appt..

the doc told me they can totally see my heart as there's sumthing blocking it, so they need me to do a SCOPE instead!! cos i dunno my medical history well enough so i cant give the full infor to the doc, need to go back n find hopefully i will still dig it out.. suddenly i feel down, i feel tired abt all tis check up all tis shit, cos everything is abt $$.. summore for all tis heart check up i dun think my insurance can claim also!! haiz~~

pl going for operation on thurs, damn fast la.. hope everything will be fine for him..!!

went suntec with DS so long didnt step in city hall place ald, like so different the place.. got new shops.. bought 1 shoes cos im wearing heels seem uncomfortable to me cos have to walk here n there!! another collection of shoes!! boohoo~~ went basement walking n thinking wat to eat, teppayaki or chinese food.. end up chose chinese food hahaha!! walk too much need RICE...

went to see camera reali thinking canon or casio cos the casio is CHEAP which is $299.. as for canon is reali abt ex la.. anyway we saw 1 of our fren he tell him abt tis camera so i feel is quite worth it to get it since is cheap n it's PINK... yes i got it!! i hope over the weekend im going to try out tis.. hope it wont disappoint me.. happy ending going home with royce chocolate also.. fatty liao!! opps

took train back so tiring no place to sit summore wth!! went home receive news frm alvin kor, is a BAD NEWS abt their bro my bro.. i reali dun understand y he wanna do tis, but i dun have the 勇气.. i still talk to him on msn last night and tis fucking thing happen like tat.. why?? nobody knows...

My sister keeper

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went to watch it with april n her schmate, when i watch the preview for tis show i cry out.. jus the little small part of it i also can cry out!! im like a cry baby~~ haha!! anyway the whole show is real GREAT during the show i think we cry alot or almost the whole movie we cry, is abt family, abt sistership, abt love~~ how nice?? the last movie i cried the most is MARLEY & ME i guess.. maybe i like to watch sad movie cos it touch my heart.. but of cos u need to watch with the RIGHT person also..

cant be when yr tears drop the person beside u laughing at u CRYING!! wth.. i will feel like slapping tat person!! anyway i hope there will be more touching show, recently all the show on cinema is damn like SHIT!! haha..

Halloween Night

i was totally break down at home, while thinking how to live for my next 30 days.. wat abt DEC it's still the same im gonna die!! srly thanks to jessica she company me to chat alot.. im reali damn pei cek at home summore it's suppose to be a happy n wonderful night tonight... end up i still join them to cck~~

went to longie hse try on my "ge tai" costume haha, they say i look ok in it.. didnt wanna wear it but everyone joining the fun for the night so let party man!! heng i brought my legging if not i will feel werid for not wearing it cos is abit short!! wow~~ the best dress up is longie sis la he rocks man... spending 2 hours at his teacher's hse to do his face, cool la..

so excited for the night make up, change, jump here n there... cabby down to sabai~~ half way there it started to rain sianz half, most worried is longie face cos if his face kena dan his so call make up is gonna drop off.. the cab uncle is nice he stop n take his umbrella and bring us in to sabai lo.. so nice!! i ask him if he can give us his umbrella hahaha...

xian meet yeeseng there when we were there i think he's abt to gone liao.. start jio-ing xian to drink drink drink, he is totally crazy la.. the way he pour is jus like pour plain water..!! get to see a long ago fren 1 word to say "suck" hahaha... the night wasnt tat fun cos due to our dressing make us so uncomfortable jus like longie he hug the fan there, the rest like not tat happening also..

we tot longie gonna win his canon back home but end up we got cheated, his prize is 1 martell + 1 black label.. lame!! but overall is damn fun dressing up in tis way.. cheryl got a fierce look and her make up also, aft adding the so call blood everything look more real.. tis yeeseng reali mad to the max he took the blood on his hand, walk to his fren give him a bday surprise by making his fren face full of blood.. wth!!

we didnt stay till late so around 4+ all wanna go back liao, as for me i head to jab1 to look for chye n alvin.. start drink abit!! had breakfast dan HSH...